New Year

It's a new year.
New school year that is.

And it's so different,
yet exactly the same.

It's all the same classes, just one level higher.
And still just as hard.
Still a struggle
Except for that one Personal Health class which is a blessing from above because it is the one time during the week I get to relax.

Did I tell you I'm singing now?
Chorus is the new stomping grounds for your girl.
AKA I have no clue what I'm actually doing
But it sounds cool, so I assume I'm at least doing average.

The cello front is going much better.
I feel more relaxed and I feel like I'm pushing myself a little harder ever day.
There's even a recital coming in the next semester.
I'm simultaneously excited and ignoring the pit in my stomach.

My group of friends is my family.
It's slowly growing, but the close ones will always remain few and mighty.
Love remains lost.

There's a giant Mike Wazowski balloon in my roommates bed right now.
A lone companion in my fall break spent alone on campus.
And that was a blessing in itself.

But what I really want to mention are my goals for this year. And even as I write this I'm still not sure. I filled out a bunch of papers for an education class earlier were I was supposed to come up with goals to learn some motivation strategies or whatever, but I came up with the usual "Let's try to avoid eating so many french fries" and then let it die.
But why?
I need goals. I can't remain stagnant any longer

Goal 1: Make at least 1 other friend. And keep them.
Goal 2: Spend at least a while a week playing for fun.
Goal 3: Learn something new
Goal 4: Stop eating so many french fries. (But actually because it's getting to be a real problem and you need to control yourself girl)
Goal 5: Don't give up on you Happy Book.
Goal 6: Family is the best thing you have. Remember that
Goal 7: Maybe even talk to that boy in chorus?

Happy Thoughts for October 17, 2015

1. I almost finished building that Washington D.C. puzzle today. An enormous feat because there's actually a ton of roads in DC? And they all look the same?
2. My dear dear father bought me Chinese food today, which I devoured while watching two seasons of Scandal
3. I discovered the beauty of Chocolate Chip ice cream. See Mechu? This is what happens when you branch out.
4. I  left my bed approximately 3 times just to pee and get my food.
5. My friends come back tomorrow!! (Ignoring the fact that I actually have to shower and clean and practice and do homework AAAAAAAAH) 

Currently listening to:
Playlist: "Barefoot in the rain" It makes me feel like I'm in a romantic comedy. What's not to love?
Stray Heart- Green Day
Any ballad from the last three decades