Talk to me you idiot, I like you

And right now I'm listening to lovesick songs and scrolling down this endlessly long train of tumblr posts all about happy endings and new beginnings.
I want that.
I want that with you, idiot. 

I see you almost every day. I look forward to Tuesdays and Fridays the most. 
I've started to actually worry about what I look like. I want you to think that I care.
I want you to think that I'm funny, and cute, and interesting, and a thesaurus of other adjectives.

I've fallen in love with the idea of you.
I've made you into this picture perfect person for me (with flaws of course, you can't get everything).
I want to figure myself out so that maybe, just maybe
You can fall in love with the idea of me.

So, I'm going to keep feeling butterflies whenever we accidentally brush against each other when getting out of class and get nervous whenever you look at me when I'm filling my cup up with water (which I actually fill up more than three times because the chance of looking into your eyes one more time outweighs my having to pee a million times later) and there will always be this part of me that gets sad when I see you hug other girl. 

You haunt me. I see the back of your head in every person that walks in front of me. A picture of you flashes right as the elevator door opens to the third floor. Your name is everywhere I look. 

I don't know you.
I barely learned your name just a couple of days ago.
I don't know a single thing about you.
But you don't know how much I think I like you. 


Happy Thoughts for October 30, 2015

1. I wore a nice dress today (which I bought for the great price of $8 at Target as a matter of fact)
2. I, Mechu, am going to a party, a real life party, tomorrow and am actually looking forward to it
3. And I'm dressing up as Blaire Waldorf who is everything I'm not
4. I managed to clean my room last night and I got rid of that godforsaken puzzle that was taking over my floor
5. Anything that Radice says out of context would be worthy of a good chuckle. 

Currently listening to:
Anything by Ben Rector because he understands my feelings right now
I recently started listening to Balance and Composure and they're pretty dang good